Also P-Stump looks very bizare right now. His chest is too broad for him to look right thin, that or I'm just not used to it. He looks healthier though, I think.
It's been years since I actively wanted to, but I've not actively wanted to live in a long time either. It feels amazing. I feel like I could take on the entire world.
I have to go for a scan once I get back to Swansea after new year and then they'll work out exactly what it is. And in the meantime I have a prescription of two weeks worth of super strength prescription and then I can get some more at home to cover me an extra week if need be. I'm a bit gutted to be honest, because here it's free, but if I need more when I'm home I'm gonna be paying £14.40 for it but whatever. I should just be grateful I get it free when I'm here at all. At least I got my loan so I'll actually be able to pay the prescription fees if need be.
Now I'm gonna sit and cry and hope to god it is just really bad sciatica because fuck, does the idea of a tumor petrify me. Then I might contemplate whether or not I can walk to the nearest pharmacy. Right now I'm struggling with down the hall to the kitchen. :(
But I must admit, watching Jamie Oliver (which, despite the fact that he's not remotely geered towards even vegetarians, let alone vegans, I do rather love) makes me want to cook everything he makes. It's pretty much the only time I ever feel disapointed about having made this lifestyle choice (not that I want to take it back, just look! everything he makes looks so tasty if I don't think of it as a dead animal).
Today's is very exciting though because it's roast potatos and veg and I'm so cooking this stuff at Christmas. I'm gonna pack a bento box of it for boxing day at my grans because she gets so sad that my dinner always looks kinda pathetic in comparison to hers. YES! Awesome dinner!
The only downside is I hate having windows open when I'm alone, it's stupid, because I'm 3 floors up and the window only opens like a couple of inches so no one could get in, but I still hate it. You'd think that wouldn't matter seeing as it's the middle of December except I'm sat in a tshirt and pj shorts and boiling.
So far I've spent my holiday watching TV (including a lot of Christmas countdowns, sadly) and reading and not a lot else. No revision yet, though I know I'm gonna have to get on it pretty quickly if I stand any hope of passing the exams. Plus they haven't sorted out the fucking exam arangements so basically I'm fucked.
Still, the guy from Preselli came over to fetch our kitchen table from nextdoors flat (so helpful of them to borrow it and then leave without returning it!) and he promised to come check in on me if he doesn't see me collecting the post for more than two days which is a nice relief.
For now I'm gonna finish watching Life On Mars and then get some sleep and then go shopping so I can do all the washing up everyone so helpfully left for me and maybe get some butter so I can make a crumble to cheer myself up.
Wow this post is a mess.
A/N – Dude, so many chapters to write ! xD
DISCLAIMER – Trey Parker and Matt Stone own South Park
BEBE’S POV
I woke up this morning to the sound of my alarm clock buzzing in my ear.
“Meh, how-how did it get there?” I asked myself, completely clueless to how my phone was in my hand under my ear.
I sat up and rubbed my tired eyes, whilst yawning. When I was fully awake I checked the cell phone and saw I was still connected to one contact. Then it clicked. I smiled to myself as if I knew some deep, dark secret.
“Bebe! Are you up? It’s five past seven! Tweek’ll be here at quarter to eight.”
“Okay, mom. I’m up!” I shouted downstairs to my mom and jumped out of my queen size bed, pulling a teddy bear with me.
I stood in front of my mirror, gazing sadly at my appearance. I know I’m not ugly, but I could look a lot prettier than this. I pulled out my black comb from the top drawer of my chest of drawers and pulled it through my hair, causing it to become bushy. I sighed and dabbed my fingers into a white tub of cream, and then pulled my fingers through my hair, trying to make it look nice and curly, not frizzy and/or bushy.
It made it look ten times worse.
I sighed again and walked over to my bed, bending down and pulling out a plastic box full of hair utensils. I opened it and dug through the mess, until I eventually found my straighteners. I plugged them into the socket beside my bed and combed my hair again. Whilst waiting for the straighteners to heat up, I pulled out underwear and clothes for the day from my chest of drawers and wardrobe, which stood next to each other at the end of the room.
After stripping and pulling on a pair of skinny jeans and a baggy black band top, I picked up my straighteners and straightened my bushy, blonde hair.
Xxx
“Good morning, Bebe. Oh! What have you done to your hair?” Mom rushed over to me from behind the counter and started fussing about my hair; I pushed her away and sat down at the kitchen table.
“Nothing, mom. I just straightened it.”
“Why?” She looked outraged, and because of this I let out a snort, causing her to scowl at me.
“I straightened my hair because I wanted it straight.” I stated.
“Don’t get lary with me, miss. I’m the one who gave birth to you, along with all the other things I done, like bathing you, changing your diaper and dressing you. Back when I was a child... ”
I sighed and let my head fall onto my crossed arms on the kitchen table and let my old fashioned mother babble on about when she was my age.
A few minutes later I heard the doorbell ring. Instantly I jumped up and answered it.
“H-hey, GAH! Bebe,” Tweek stood at the door with a smile on his luscious red lips. I looked him up and down, noting the mint hoodie and dark blue jeans with black sneakers. Nice.
“Hey, Tweek,” I smiled at him and turned my head. “Mom! Are you gonna drive us to school or what?”
“Yes, yes! I’m just coming!” She shuffled out from the kitchen, a coat in hand and her car keys.
I grabbed my red sweater from the banister of the stairs and walked outside with Tweek. “Mom, don’t forget your house keys.”
She smiled and held them up. “I got them here, dear.”
“Awesome.”
We got in the car, me and Tweek in the back and mom in the front. It’s our daily routine. Me and Tweek usually chatted while mom drove and sung along to her favourite C.D.
I turned to Tweek. “So,”
“So?”
“How are you?”
“I’m, nrgh, fine.”
“Awesome!”
Tweek raised an eyebrow. “What do you want?”
I smirked and leaned in towards him to whisper in his ear. I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. “Go straight to the boy’s bathroom when we reach the school.”
He nodded. I played with a strand of his pale blonde hair and leaned against his shoulder.
He looked at me. “Are you tired?”
I nodded.
“Your hair looks nice today.”
I smiled. “Thanks.” I sat up again and looked at him. “I think your hair’s far nicer, though.” I ruffled it.
The boy chuckled.
“What?” I pouted.
Tweek shook his head. “Nothing.”
I slumped against the seat, dropping it. I couldn’t be bothered.
Xxx
I was sat in the sinks in the boy’s bathroom with Tweek’s strong hands round my waist, pulling me nearer him, whilst my hands had a firm grip in his hair and neck.
We were exchanging spit real good.
Occasionally a moan would escape either one of our mouths, causing the other to chuckle softly. I pulled myself closer to Tweek’s warm body.
meeting
THEN HOPEFULLY THEY'D BRING OUR BANNER ON STAGE AND OUR LIFE WOULD OFFICIALLY BE STAMPED GOLD BFKQBVKBWE I KNO YOU CAN HEAR ME KAREN, HI HI, HELLO?
AND THERE'S A CHANCE FOR A FOXBORO HOT TUBS CONCERT HERE? holy joseph mary moses i might just break down if i do see both bands humping the stages on this island. I don't even know how to handle my life anymore at this point ;_; JUST HAVING THIS KNOWLEDGE. I DON'T...............................
K INHALE, BYE
knn HMV sell so many calendars featuring twilight/newmoon and otha random bands who idgaf about. WER DA FUCK IS GREEN DAY? DO I NEED TO CUT EBAY AGAIN?
went to see a film with my bf and his friends tonight
turned out that there was an opening scene which brought out a lot of horrible flashbacks for me...
and i ended up switching to oliver who is only 7..
i could feel myself switching but i had this overwhelming exhaustion which just took away any ability for me to hold control whilst i was having these flashbacks
now i'm back and i am feeling exhasburated (dont shoot me on the spelling)
oliver is very dormant so its not usual for him to come out... it was probably to do with the scene. either way, he sat there terrified for... about two and a half hours (we went at 8.30, it is now nearly 12) but he just cried when he got out apparently.
my poor bf =[
i feel like such a burden.
i can only remember the beginning and a little of the finish of the movie.. so i missed a massive chunk
blugh
may just go to bed now and feel guilty about wasting my lovers time...
- Location:home
- Mood:
disappointed - Music:nothing.
£10 just to learn about a year of Obama's presidency seems like a bit of a waste, really. But there's no point buying the Bush edition, because this is a book I'll use in my course next year so if I'm gonna buy one it needs to be as recent as possible so I won't just have to buy another one next year. I already might have to if Obama does something huge in the next year or so anyway.
:( No fun books for me.
Wore the most killer heels you will ever see, and managed not to fall on my ass once! At one point I slipped but I managed to catch myself so no harm done. Spent the evening with Mikeyway (AKA Kathryn [she looks like Mikeyway and I didn't know her name for ages so Mikeyway stuck. - She doesn't know this]) and some friends of hers who are now friends of mine! One was from Somerset! There are more gay people in Somerset than just me! The total is now 2!
First part was kinda interesting, we talked about Jedward (they were in Swansea Monday night for our ball), twincest, Jedward and twincest, uh, and whether 12 year olds dating 20 year olds in manga is creepy. Then back to incest for some reason. Mikeyway is awesomely weird! After that we went to the club not the bar, and danced and shit, then party games!
First game was to pass oranges, didn't participate and it was kinda meh. Second game was for two girls to compete to collect the most of one type of clothing. Was fun to watch and because I was wearing a dress I didn't have to participate which was even better.
Then we danced some more, Ian got dressed up in stunning drag (he was strangey attractive which is creepy) and sang, I got dragged up onto the platform to dance and somehow enjoyed it. THEN third game. This is where it went very wtf. Mikeyway and Josh were pushing me toward the stage to participate and then Aiden appeared, grabbed my arm and pulled, and because my shoes have no grip I ended up on the stage.
The game? One person strips, one person licks whipped cream off their body. Two teams, winner is the person who licks the cream off first. Thankfully Dom got the licking part, except I was wearing a strappless bra which was really far too low cut to be seen in public, so I had to pretty much get my tits out on stage. And there are pictures... It's amazing how much more confidence you have for dancing like an idiot though once you've stood in front of everyone wtith your dress folded down round your waist having whipped cream licked off you.
Then I broke my shoe doing a do si do and had to take them off and walk back to the taxi rank bare foot on the freezing wet floor. They carried me most of the way though, bless them!
It's now like almost 3.30 and I'm so not ready for bed yet. I might need a shower...
- Music:Joan Rodgers - A Sea Symphony [No. 1]: IV. The Explorers (Grave e molto adagi
About fucking time!
